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thankful

I was almost convinced that everyone who had frequented my blog before had gotten fed up with my lack of updates and stopped visiting. I was 97% sure that the hits on this page decreased by at least 79%, but to my pleasant surprise, I was stunned to find out that readership had remained fairly steady which begs the question, why on earth do people come visit this page?

The best possible explanation that I could come up with is that some of you guys are genuinely curious as to how I’m doing, since chances are we haven’t seen eachother in months. If this is the case, then I’m sorry for not blogging more often but perhaps more than that I’m sorry we don’t get to meet as often as we ought to.

My grandpa in Korea passed away this past Sunday.  Now I have only one living grandparent left (my dad’s mom) and she too lives in Korea. Growing up, I absolutely hated and begrudged the fact that nearly all my relatives lived halfway across the world from me. I never really knew what it was like to befriend my cousins, have big family get togethers during holidays and listen to great stories from my grandparents, about how life was like when they were my age. Many times I probably over romanticized the notion of close proximity with extended family, but that doesn’t help fill the void that I sometimes feel.

I think for the past several months I’ve done a lot of whining and complaining, and I’m beginning to think that it’s beginning to take it’s toll on my spirit, my energy levels and so forth. So going forward, whenever I have the urge to ‘vent’, I’ll write about what makes me happy and what I’m thankful for instead. Momma always said, if for every one thing I want to complain about, I list three things that I’m thankful for instead…I’ll be much better off for it.

I feel like I’m getting sick. It’s 8:30 pm and I’m going to go to sleep now. Thank you for visiting my site…it helps motivate me to write which helps steer me away from dumbity.

some of my favorite pics..

I know, I know…I need to take photography more seriously and perfect my craft.

R.I.P. Silver

This site needs a makeover. I’ve had it for how long, and only changed the layout once or twice. Change can be refreshing, but it is also time consuming and takes some getting used to.

There seems to be a lot on my mind lately but I don’t have any time to write my thoughts down. I’ll just say a lil something somthing about death.

Two days ago, my silver mini shark fish died. I’ve actually had him/her for over 5 years and grew as attached to him as a guy can with a fish. I’m not comfortable with the notion of death since I have very limited experience with the thing. As selfish as it sounds, funerals really scare me and I’m somewhat thankful that I’ve only been to around 3 my entire life.

I really don’t feel like writing so I’ll stop. It’s quite sad that it’s come to this…writing for the sake of filling a spot. I used to find such joy and freedom in expressing my thoughts.

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When it rains, it pours. Perhaps I should practice more caution when writing in this blog of mine…

Obama wins!!! I think. American politics are so confusing. Why is he being projected to win when the numbers are stagerringly in his favor?!

running on fumes

@ Chris: LOL. I remember those days all too well. It was mainly just D and K. J pretty much kept to herself and did her work (the way it ought to be?). if you moved to Erin’s desk, where did he move to?

@ Serina: I miss you! Please keep me updated missy! I’m assuming you heard about Choi Jin Sil? Must’ve rocked the film industry heavily. hope you’re doing well, but i know you are

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So this past Sunday, the fiance and I had our engagement shoot. To make a long story short, 7 hours, over 5 different locations, 2 wonderful photographers, a bowl of sphaghetti (long story), loads of fun, lots of driving = all very much worth it. Here are a few pics from the shoot. I’ll put up more when I find the time to go through them all.

There’s so much going on in my life as of late. My lil cousin (about 2 years younger than me) is coming to Canada to study English for a year tomorrow evening. He’s always been one of my favorite cousins, so I’m looking forward to his stay  here. Wedding planning/prep is definitely picking up. Work is absolutely brutal. Apparently, I’m the only one who’s teachable so they keep packing my plate to the point of overflowment (is that a word?).

I’m tired. I’m old. I have no energy left. good night.

I HATE SPAM!

kay, so to whomever left me that message that started with “omg…”,  my apologies since I deleted your message by accident. What had happened was, I get SO many spam comments on my blog, that I just start clicking away, deleting them one by one in rapid fire succession. Problem is, sometimes…rarely, I’ll get a real comment but by the time I realize this, I already  marked it as spam which means I deleted it.

It’s 11 pm and I just got home. I’m tired. I’m going to sleep now. Yes I know it’s pathetic, and yes I know I lead a boring grandpalike life.

gnite.

true love

The love affair is definitely blossoming. It started roughly 2 years ago when I caught a glimpse that made me week in the knees and thirsty for more. The more I pursued her, the more she seemed to be out of my reach. Many times I gave up, thinking I was not good enough or talented enough to catch her interest. But friends of mine supported me, others who knew how serious I was about her, told me to press on…to not lose hope and to keep on trying.

Im glad I never gave up on you Photography.

www.dennyandjennifer.com

After months of stress, hard work and some serious procrasintation, our wedding website is FINALLY complete…well sorta haha. see for yourselves at

www.dennyandjennifer.com

Last night some friends and I came up with a great idea of going to Fallsview Casino at 3 am to try our luck. Long story short I lost $100 bucks in 10 minutes while playing no limit Hold’Em…some of the guys I played with give “aggressive” a new meaning. Ahh well, I’ve chalked it up to life experience..

Now that the wedding website is more or less out of the way, I can shift my focus to other marital tasks at hand, but they shall remain a secret at the moment.

I really do apologize for the lack of updates and appreciate those of you who still come to this page seeking one. I’ll try to do better from now on.

itunes

Today’s been a really long day. Wedding in the afternoon, shopping at Vaughan Mills, then babysitting, then a friend’s boyfriend got into a car accident, then chilled with friends outside a nearby plaza and now I just returned to my room. It’s 1:49 am and I’m kinda wired from the bubble tea I just drank so i thought, why not post.

I just made did something that I almost vowed to myself that I’d never do…as the title of this entry may suggest, I bought/downloaded an album off iTunes.

Several months, maybe even a year ago, I saw this girl singing Rhianna’s Umbrella song on youtube. She had nothing but a guitar and a really great voice. So instantly, I became somewhat of a ‘fan’. Fast forward till today, she’s become somewhat of a youtube phenom. Her videos have had MILLIONS of views and she even released an independent album, which I just paid $7.99 for. It’s funny cuz I refuse pay $15 for mainstream artists/releases, yet I’ll spend half on an indie/viral artist. Wait, i guess that does kinda make sense afterall.

Anyway, the process was incredibly simple and actually pretty cool. I could see why iTunes is getting so big and why some people are racking up download bills in the 5 figures. Not to say that I’d ever remotely come close to doing the same, but yeah…you know what I’m driving at.

The name of the artist btw is Marie Digby.

On a final note, my fiance and I are planning to do a lil multimedia thing for our wedding. I’ve never really dabbled into video producing/editing, but the prospect of doing so excites me. I’m going to make this thing the best anyone’s ever seen (by wedding standards) and hopefully won’t go too crazy from all the studying/trial and erroring I’ll have to do to pull it off.

aight, 1:55 am. Gnite.

Writing used to come easy to me. Wait, let me correct that…expressing my thoughts and feelings used to come easy to me. I’ve always been able to sit down and pour out my heart through my words. This was usually a good thing when it encouraged, uplifted and inspired but I also used it to be destructive and hurtful.

Now, I feel apathy towards both uses and struggle to even write a few lines when the time comes. I have so much on my mind these days yet I can’t seem to get myself to really process the thoughts through. Life is too busy with people I gotta meet and places I have to go. A big part of me wants to just become a modern day hermit, confine myself to my room and do the things that need to be done. Things like self evaluation, introspective meditation, career assessment/planning, etc. etc. But in lieu of those things, I’ve been meeting up with friends, having fun and things of that nature. Don’t get me wrong, those things are very important to me too, but I don’t want it if it’s at the expense of self realization and improvement.

My fiance used to tell me that I tend to analyze things to death. Which is funny because I often told her that she worries about things to death. I think I am a very  logical person who needs things to be thought out and either planned or prepared for. I don’t like to do things on the fly and I don’t like to do things without analyzing why I’m doing and how it’s beneficial to me.

I guess there really isn’t a point to today’s entry except to be a reminder to me to be mindful of what I do/say/am because I want to be accountable for everything. Life is all about balance right? I can’t just lock myself in my room but then again, I can’t just go out and be mr. social all the time. it’s all about balance.